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I've been doing a lot of thinking this last year. The kind of thinking that makes you look at a friend and say, "You need to get out more." The kind of thinking that quickly leads into rumination, repetition, and doomspiraling. The kind of thinking that feels really productive to my little rat brain who doesn't realize the cheese is poisoned.
I'm hoping that channeling some of that thinking onto a page will help. If nothing else maybe seeing it written down will temper some of my more intense moments.
I've been very surprised the past couple of years by how much I've sincerely enjoyed getting into blogs and rediscovering other "old-web" communities, hobbies, or whatever you call what we used to do on the web before the hypercapitalists got their grubby hands around our throats. With that and switching to Linux last Summer I've been really feeling some of the spark I remember feeling when I was a kid learning how to set up game servers and port forward my router for friends and family.
I miss optimism and possibility. Feels like that still lives here, at least sometimes.
I really want to (and will keep working on) turn this blog into its own site and self-host it but I've fought with Xginx for long enough that I kind of got frustrated and searched for another solution. On the plus side, Bear seems to host a lot of people whom I really enjoy reading, so I'm happy to join you all.
But I still want to turn this into my own thing and no amount of telling me that hosting a site out of my residential connection is a bad idea is gonna stop me. Comcast and security best practices can go to hell. :) I want the learning experience and the satisfaction of building it myself and I'm distrustful of corporate platforms.
I don't know, this is pretty rambling. Most of my thoughts are these days. Guess I just wanted to put an initial post up to have something here. Nice to join you all. Nice to post something on the internet again after so many years.